Sunday, 12 April 2020

Easter Sunday - Jesus is present

Reflection
When the unexpected happens you don’t quite know how to believe it. Often we are so surprised, taken aback, and find it hard to process. Sometimes the surprise is a good one, sometimes it is not.  The disciples went through the most traumatic event of their lives on Friday.   Witnessing the death of Jesus was beyond their ability to process.  It was a huge disappointment for a start.

Jesus who had fed the 5000 with a pack lunch, Jesus who had walked on water and calmed the storm with his words, Jesus who had healed the sick and sent demons into pigs, Jesus who had challenged religious leaders and caused many sleepless nights had died on a cross like a common criminal.  There was no worse way for a Jew to die than on a cross - crucified. 

The followers of Jesus cannot comprehend the love that took Jesus to the cross.  Nor could they comprehend the necessity of it, even when he said ‘It is finished’. 

Yet before they had even had time to move from the shock and the numbness of loss, the women come running to tell them Jesus was alive.  It is no wonder they couldn’t believe them.  The run to the tomb would have been a mixture of disbelief and hope.  The running commentary in their heads (no pun intended) - are they right? Where he is?  Can it be?  

They see the empty tomb, the strips of cloth lying there and they believe, don’t believe, believe in the roller coaster of emotion.  They return to the others, but Mary hangs back.  Her world is upside down, her Lord is missing and she cannot comprehend it.  There is nowhere for her to go.  So she waits, pacing and waiting.  

Our world is upside down.  We are all going through the same crisis but we handle it in different ways.  The men gathered in locked rooms, praying, discussing, hiding in fear.  The women were watchers - always there watching.  Yet Jesus appears to Mary in the garden where she waits, and he appears to the disciples in the locked room. There isn’t a right or a wrong way to be in this crisis - whether we are cooped up in anxious conversation or watching anxiously, pacing nervously -  we all react in our own way.  However, Jesus knows where we are and he comes to us where we are.  He appears in the room with the menfolk and offers them peace. He comes to Mary waiting and watching in the garden. 

So if you are a worrier, anxious for you or for loved ones - Jesus is with you bringing peace.  He is able to encourage and strengthen you, so that you can encourage and strengthen others. 

If you are watching, pacing, wondering where Jesus is, perhaps, pause for a moment and listen to him calling your name. He knows you and loves you, and maybe we are too busy pacing to recognise he is with us.  

We live in uncertain times, and we know that the world has changed, just as it changed that first Easter Sunday morning.  Things would never be the same again.  We believe that the Easter morning, when the stone rolled and Jesus rose from the dead, brought about a new beginning, an open relationship with God.  Things were never the same again for the disciples for something traumatic will always change how we perceive the world around us.  However, Jesus remained a constant presence in their lives, as he does in ours.  And he promises that even in death, he will be with us.  God promises to never leave us nor abandon us, and we can believe that for this life and the next.  

Easter Sunday allows us to believe and trust in this text from John 14: 

‘Do not let your hearts be troubled. You believe in God; believe also in me. My Father’s house has many rooms; if that were not so, would I have told you that I am going there to prepare a place for you? And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am. You know the way to the place where I am going.’
Thomas said to him, ‘Lord, we don’t know where you are going, so how can we know the way?’

Jesus answered, ‘I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me. If you really know me, you will know my Father as well. From now on, you do know him and have seen him.’


You are God’s child and he loves you.  This Easter know that Jesus travels with you, and he brings words of peace and knows you by name.  Let him be with you. 


Friday, 10 April 2020

Good Friday - ‘It is finished’

What is finished?

What is finished?
Not Jesus.  
He doesn’t say ‘I am finished.’ These are not words of defeat.

He says ‘It is finished.’
He doesn’t say ‘God is finished.’ These are not words of frustration. 

He says ‘It is finished.’
He doesn’t say ‘You are finished.’ These are not words of anger.

He says ‘It is finished.’ These are words of completion. 
These are words uttered when the job is done. 
‘It is finished’. Words of satisfaction. 
‘It is finished’. Decisive. Determined. 

What is finished? The Old Covenant.
What is finished? The Devil.
What is finished? The Law

He says ‘It is finished’.  Complete. Done. 

So maybe now we ask the one who finished it 
what is begun?

What is started? What is new? What begins?
For he is the creator, he brings life with his words...
so listen for him saying...

‘It is started’ for God is not finished.  Rather he has begun something new with us, for us, about us. 

As Easter dawns, as the tomb is opened, as the hosannas ring 
let us watch for what is about to begin...
   


Maundy Thursday - What is Love?

Reading:  John 13:1-17, 31b-35

Reflection
Love is...what is love?  We all have answers to that question! Sometimes love is mundane isn’t it?  Or like it’s on automatic pilot?  You know you love your partner, children, parents, best mate, but often the love is like the background music in the movies.  Sometimes love is tested like being forced to listen to cheesy music in the elevator.  Other times the music is barely heard,and at other times the music is harsh and angry as tempers flare.  And when you hear Nat King Cole - unforgettable - well love is well and truly in the air! Or put on those 80s tunes and get on the dance floor with your best mate, dancing like nobody is watching. 

I believe that if the saying is true that money makes the world go round, love is the glue that holds it together.  And without a doubt, love is really sticky at the moment, and money is being shown the door. 

The changes that Coronavirus has brought to our daily lives are beyond our comprehension, despite our ability to articulate what they are.  The knock on effects of isolation are beyond our ability to truly articulate because how do you put into words the loneliness, the missing, the lack of human touch, the fear when we do have to be around other people, the boredom...the emotional anxiety overload, the grief...it is no wonder we can barely focus or indeed multi-task. 

Yet despite all of this, so many have stepped up and stepped out.  We face this crisis with stoicism and resilience and we get on with it.  And we have learnt to appreciate one another in ways we never did before.  And dare I say it, even serve one another. 

Tonight’s story is about Jesus washing the feet of his disciples.  Having loved his own who were in the world, that is his disciples and friends, he now showed them the full extent of his love.  It’s curious this part.  We talk about Jesus’ death showing the full extent of his love, yet here in the seemingly thankless task of washing dirty, dusty, sweaty feet is Jesus showing the full extent of his love. 

Reflect on that for a moment - why is washing the feet of his friends showing them the full extent of his love?  

The washing of feet before sitting down for the meal is the equivalent of coming home from a long day at work, changing out your work shoes and putting on your slippers and resting by the fire with your cuppa!  So it was a normal practice to get comfortable for dinner.  It was a task undertaken by the lowest slave in the home. 

Jesus who was their teacher, their leader, their mentor goes from being the host to the slave.  In fact the passage reminds us that Jesus is from God and will return to God.  And this prompts him to get up, strip to his undergarments, wrap a towel around his waist and wash their feet.  And the work he does is about making his disciples clean and comfortable before they have dinner together.  The gift he offers them is for their well-being. 

But he is doing the work of a slave.  He washes their feet - and Simon Peter who is usually the first, is not the first on this occasion.  He has time to get uncomfortable...this is no work for Jesus to be doing... Jesus has a position, a status to uphold.  He can’t demean himself in this way.  This is the job of a slave, not a Rabbi.  Yet Jesus shows the full extent of his love by doing the work of a slave. He is willing to be considered as the lowest of the low and that is embarrassing for Peter.  

Jesus can read Peter like a book.  He knows exactly what Peter is feeling.  Jesus reminds us that if we want to be like him then we should be willing to wash one another’s feet.  And folks when I look about that is what I’m seeing.  Obviously, not literally and certainly not everywhere.  But suddenly we are appreciating those who ‘wash feet’ rather than those who ‘lord’ it over us.  Our celebrities and footballers who earn a fortune are suddenly relegated as we clap hands, bang pots and ring bells for NHS workers and carers.  We value the people emptying our bins and stocking our shelves as fast we are unloading them.  We suddenly realise how much we need GPs and their receptionists we moan about so much, and there are just not enough pharmacists to keep up with demand.  Clergy and other religious leaders are working hard to try and connect with their congregations and the community supporting people in this time of crisis.  

And our community activists, many of whom have been working behind the scenes of the community are now up front and centre, co-ordinating food parcels, and deliveries to housebound and more.  

CEOs who have lived in their own power bubbles have felt the onslaught of the community - being forced to make u-turns on keeping their businesses open.  Or being strongly encouraged to treat their staff better by furloughing them rather than making them redundant.  Suddenly, we are witnessing a real shift in understanding about who or what is most important.  It’s no longer the size of your pay packet but what you actually contribute to the community at large that is being measured and rated.   This event is making volunteers of so many, as we are torn away from the busy 24/7 life we had so embraced.  Those who we have often taken for granted, just accepted as part of the fabric of life, the background music of life have become the concert masterpiece composed through love and resilience. 

We are showing the full extent of our love when we are willing to get down of our pedestals, our high horses of self-righteous expectation, and get involved for the greater good.  And if it is good enough for the Son of God, then folks it is good enough for us whether we are high court judges or older folks asked to baton down the hatches or weary households with voices asking ‘is it nearly over yet...’

The last part of the reading from John’s Gospel for tonight comes from John 13:31b-35

Jesus said, ‘Now the Son of Man is glorified and God is glorified in him. 32 If God is glorified in him,[c] God will glorify the Son in himself, and will glorify him at once.
33 ‘My children, I will be with you only a little longer. You will look for me, and just as I told the Jews, so I tell you now: where I am going, you cannot come.
34 ‘A new command I give you: love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. 35 By this everyone will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another.’

That love is epitomised by the willingness to serve and to follow that through.  And Jesus never lost his status as the Son of God.  Letting go of our pride to let love win the day doesn’t mean we lose who we are.  If anything we will be blessed.   Tomorrow we remember just how far that love was willing to go to serve us all. 


God loves you from your feet to your heart! 
Love Sarah 

Friday, 3 April 2020

Share our day - share our burden

Praise be to the Lord, to God our Savior,
    who daily bears our burdens.  Psalm 68:19

The schools break today for their holidays.  Two weeks of no schoolwork - one less argument to have in my household.  But I know they are are going to miss it too because their world has shrunk so much.  Never have parents been so grateful for the online community where at least children can connect and talk.  Yet I see the fractures appearing in my children - these days are a burden despite no school!

Yesterday I chatted with my Gran (97) who lives in Pitlochry in sheltered housing flat.  Still independent to a point and still going steady...but she said something really profound.  She only moved in there a couple of years ago, living alone up until that point (widowed in her 50s).
‘Sarah’ she said, ‘I have aged more in two weeks than in the previous two years.’

The worker at their desk struggling for motivation, missing the innocuous conversations about footy or music or talent shows around the coffee cup or in the break room.

Take time today to share the burdens of one another - doesn’t have to be a moan fest (though occasionally we need them and some rants!) but actually share the burden of daily life.  Have a laugh, send a silly GIF just for the fun of it, have a really mundane conversation about the weather, grab a glass of something and connect with a friend on line somehow.

God does share our burdens daily.  There is no limitation to his ability to carry us through this, to share our burdens and as Peter says: cast all your anxiety onto him because he cares for you!  Let’s be willing to share our burdens with Him, and help others share their burden of daily life as well.  As the old saying goes: ‘A problem shared is a problem halved!’ God bless you.
#mentalhealth #resilience #Godlovesyou

Thursday, 2 April 2020

All at sea

(Jesus said) Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. Matthew 6:34 

”It feels relentless - a never ending wave of doing in a sea of nothing. A battle between being pulled under and riding the crest. Each day I hit the shore only to be pulled back again, yet each day I miss the rocks, strong enough to keep swimming. #Godisgood #clergymum #ministry”

My tweet this morning reflecting how I am feeling at the moment.  Perhaps it is open to poetic licence, but I wanted to reflect the turbulence that I feel in my daily life.  And I share it because I don’t think I’m alone in this.  I don’t share it for sympathy or pity, but as an acknowledgement that this world is overwhelming.  This virus is affecting the life of the world globally and it cares not for age nor gender, creed nor sexuality, or indeed wealth.  And whether we have had contact with it or not, we are certainly affected by it.

Please be assured that all are held in prayer, in particular, those in mourning loved ones, or waiting for that phone call notification.  For those who are working at the front line, whether in the NHS or caring professions, in the shops supplying and those working behind the scenes to support the community - please know you are loved and thank you for all you do.

For those of us who are home, perhaps alone, perhaps with family, these days can seem heavy somehow, like a burden to be carried.  And yet, at the same time we are grateful that we are ‘safe’.  It feels disrespectful somehow to feel out of sorts if we are not frontline or solving some crisis or another.  Our days are filled with phone calls to family, maybe home schooling (or trying to home school), hobbies or tv,  food and that walk or run down the same street.  Building routine and structure into our lives is key, and so is finding purpose and focus.  I have to admit that I feel I am achieving everything and nothing, and certainly I feel I am constantly trying to meet some expectation no one has, as yet, articulated!   So I go back to a lesson I learned during a dark period in my own life - take pride in the small things, the little achievements.  If I manage to do one thing today to make a difference to my family, to my community, to another person’s wellbeing - I am going to accept that it was a good day and be grateful.

Living with low level anxiety is exhausting and for many that is where we are, recognising that others are living in a much higher state of anxiety, whilst for others it is a long term condition.  Briefly, perhaps we are all in the same sea though - anxious, desperate for safe haven and solid ground.  Perhaps, we can find ways to help other swim, rather than drag each other down with cruel words and selfish actions.  Then we will find safe haven and solid ground sooner.

For me, I hold onto the hope that faith will keep me strong and courageous.

As the hymn writer wrote:

We have an anchor that keeps the soul
Stedfast and sure while the billows roll,
Fastened to the Rock which cannot move,
Grounded firm and deep in the Savior's love

I do believe that God is with us in the water - and perhaps like Peter in the stormy sea we need to look to Christ.  Peter stepped out in faith and walked on the water, and then reality kicked in and he began to sink.  Immediately, and I mean immediately, Jesus put out his hand and lifted Peter up.  I suspect we will be ‘all at sea’ for a while yet, and perhaps face even greater challenges in the day ahead. 

But I want to reassure you, as I reassure myself, that Jesus is in this stormy sea of life with us.  Be gentle with one another and look out for one another for these truly are strange times. And let tomorrow worry about itself, and make today a good day! 

God loves you, you are his child and he is with you always, even to the end of the age. 
God bless
Love Sarah 




Monday, 30 March 2020

The Power of Life (29/3/2020 reflection)

The Gospel story for 29th March 2020 is the story of Lazarus (John 11:1-45), but I have chosen to focus on the Ezekiel passage as it seemed to fit with our times.  We can find this time like time in the wilderness or the desert.  We might feel God has forgotten us or left us behind somehow...the Israelites often felt like this, in exile or under siege. 

As you read through the passage, what stands out for you? A desert is a hostile environment, a defeated army left abandoned in the hot sunshine, hope gone and life extinct.  But then God turns up.  How is our current environment hostile and what might it mean for God to turn up? 

Ezekiel 37:1-14 (NIV)
The hand of the Lord was on me, and he brought me out by the Spirit of the Lord and set me in the middle of a valley; it was full of bones. 2 He led me back and forth among them, and I saw a great many bones on the floor of the valley, bones that were very dry. 3 He asked me, “Son of man, can these bones live?”
I said, “Sovereign Lord, you alone know.”
4 Then he said to me, “Prophesy to these bones and say to them, ‘Dry bones, hear the word of the Lord! 5 This is what the Sovereign Lord says to these bones: I will make breath enter you, and you will come to life. 6 I will attach tendons to you and make flesh come upon you and cover you with skin; I will put breath in you, and you will come to life. Then you will know that I am the Lord.’”
7 So I prophesied as I was commanded. And as I was prophesying, there was a noise, a rattling sound, and the bones came together, bone to bone. 8 I looked, and tendons and flesh appeared on them and skin covered them, but there was no breath in them.
9 Then he said to me, “Prophesy to the breath; prophesy, son of man, and say to it, ‘This is what the Sovereign Lord says: Come, breath, from the four winds and breathe into these slain, that they may live.’” 10 So I prophesied as he commanded me, and breath entered them; they came to life and stood up on their feet—a vast army.
11 Then he said to me: “Son of man, these bones are the people of Israel. They say, ‘Our bones are dried up and our hope is gone; we are cut off.’ 12 Therefore prophesy and say to them: ‘This is what the Sovereign Lord says: My people, I am going to open your graves and bring you up from them; I will bring you back to the land of Israel. 13 Then you, my people, will know that I am the Lord, when I open your graves and bring you up from them. 14 I will put my Spirit in you and you will live, and I will settle you in your own land. Then you will know that I the Lord have spoken, and I have done it, declares the Lord.’”

Reflection
This passage is always fascinating, and we forget in this day and age that God speaks to us through visions.  We think visions lie in the past, yet throughout Scripture we see the use of dreams and visions.  Prophecy is given that your old men will dream dreams and your young men see visions whilst your sons and daughters prophesy.  As someone who does look for signs, who does see God in the mundane, who, at times, is open to the prompting of the Spirit, and generally sees connections all around, I still believe that God uses vision and dreams to communicate. 

Admittedly none of mine have been as spectacular as Ezekiel’s and if I’m honest, for that I’m grateful.  And of course, they don’t always readily make sense.  My recent dream of a ball of coloured yarn that is slowly unravelling is likely just my brain making sense of the current climate, rather than some spiritual wisdom! Ezekiel was in no doubt about this vision, and who the author is of that vision.  

Like the Israelites of old we can feel like broken people just now, wandering in the wilderness and unsettled about the current conditions.  To be fair, being in lock down is not the worst outcome, but it can feel restrictive, claustrophobic even.  Whether we are with people or on our own, we envy what the other half have because neither situation is great.  We are, if you like, restricted to the bare bones of life - limited exercise, limited contact and contained in small units.  Everywhere we would go to socialise or hang out is closed - all for our own safety, but since when have we ever liked doing what we are told.  Just ask Adam and Eve!

We are only at the beginning of the fallout from this disaster.  Falling as it does on the back of Brexit and its uncertainty, our economy is fragile.  We are not spending money, yet getting paid, if we are fortunate enough.  Others are not sure if they are getting paid, what they might get paid and indeed when they might get paid.  It’s no wonder we might feel like a deserted army in the desert. Others are exhausted, working so hard to heal the sick, feed the hungry, care for the prisoners and the housebound and so on! 

Yet when all seems lost, and you don’t really don’t get more lost than when your vast army lies as bleached bones in the desert, God turns up.  Admittedly, we are not there yet, if the science and the experts are right.  We are still heading towards an even more difficult time, but we know that God is there in the midst of it.  There is hope.  There is a future.   Yet sadly there is also the tragedy and the heartbreak.  It would seem that human nature being what it is, there is rarely pure joy without pain or hardship or indeed sacrifice.   We cry in childbirth yet rejoice in that first wail of new life. Today we sacrifice our some of our freedom that others might live.

In this season of Lent we are reminded that though death hovers like an unwelcome guest at a party, life is ready to bounce him out the door.  For the Israelites it was the gift of life in the shape of freedom from exile.  The other reading for this Sunday in Lent is the story of Lazarus found in the Gospels.  Lazarus, a dear friend of Jesus had died, and in this story we glimpse the humanity of Jesus as he stands at his friend’s grave and weeps.  Yet here too, death is shown the door and Lazarus is given back to his sisters Mary and Martha.  Death is the last enemy.  

As we draw ever so close to Good Friday and Easter Sunday, we see the drama between life and death played out once again.  We come to the story knowing that Life will win, yet still caught up in the loss and the grief.  For Jesus died, in much pain, betrayed and criminalised, for the sins of all people.  And he went to his death, like a lamb to slaughter.  Yet death once again was shown the door, but not without the pain and the sacrifice. 

Trust me, I know we want the easy life.  I would dearly love to curl up at home and hide away until all this is done.  I would love it even more if none of us had to face this virus or its consequences whether in terms of health or wealth or something else.  Unfortunately that is not my gift for you today.  My gift that I want to offer is hope.  The undeniable hope that death does not have the last word.  Life will always find a way.  

Through the incredible kindness of others. 
Through the patient enduring of a lockdown never seen in peacetime before. 
Through the loyalty and sheer grit of NHS staff and carers up and down the land.
Through the courageous brave souls who stock our shelves, open our stores, dispense our medication, look after the prisoners, empty our bins, all whilst putting up with abuse, ingratitude and poor pay. 

I think, perhaps, that life finds a way because we all carry within us the gift of life.  Ezekiel wasn’t a passive bystander in the vision.  God made him prophesy.  Ezekiel had to look at that desert of bones and speak the words God gave him.  Could you imagine that moment?  I suspect Ezekiel was so in awe of God he wouldn’t have questioned it, but how daft he might have felt telling those those bones to take a breath.  How impossible that moment actually was.  

For Jesus and Lazarus - Lazarus had lain for 3 days and Jesus asks for the stone to be rolled away.  Jesus prays out loud and prays that the people know that it is God who brings life. When Jesus died on the cross, he gave his soul to God his Father. In the creation story shared in the book of Genesis, it is the breath of God that gives human beings life. 

Death is coming to knock on our doors but we don’t live in fear, because we worship the God of the living.  And life will blossom again, hope will rise up, and we will once again rise and live.  

Remember those words at the beginning of John - In him was life, and that life was the light of all people.  The light shines in the darkness, but the darkness has not overcome it. 

Until then, God calls us all to live our best lives, to bring hope, compassion and love into the lives of others. These gifts that we bring offer life to others, and remind us that we are called to be someone greater than the individual we are.  We are community. People living in this world, in the common unity of our humanity. The life we lead affects the lives of those around us, from our family and friends to the pharmacist trying their best. 

As Christians, as those who believe in eternal life, who believe in the resurrection of Jesus Christ, let us live with hope, content even in hardship, and always with loving kindness in our words and actions.  And from there, may more come to know Christ and his gift of love, and God and his gift of life. 

 With God all the things are possible. 

Hold onto these words from the story of Lazarus:
Jesus said: I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in me will live, even though he dies; and whoever believes in me will never die.  
He asks: Do you this believe this?
Mary responds: Yes, Lord.
How do you respond?

Psalm 130 and prayer (29/3/2020)

So our first reading today is Psalm 130 - the lectionary reading for 29th March. It is Psalm of Longing and Looking for the Lord, known as a song of the ascents or a song of the steps. It is written from the depths - the depths of trouble and affliction.  We can trust in his mercy and great love to forgive us because if he didn’t we would fall.  And we come with expectant trust, a hopeful waiting for the Lord, and they watch for him, as we watch for the sunrise. And the singer believes that God will honour his covenant with his people.  He is faithful.  

Psalm 130 

Out of the depths I cry to you, Lord;
2 
    Lord, hear my voice.
Let your ears be attentive
    to my cry for mercy.
3 
If you, Lord, kept a record of sins,
    Lord, who could stand?
4 
But with you there is forgiveness,
    so that we can, with reverence, serve you.
5 
I wait for the Lord, my whole being waits,
    and in his word I put my hope.
6 
I wait for the Lord
    more than watchmen wait for the morning,
    more than watchmen wait for the morning.
7 
Israel, put your hope in the Lord,
    for with the Lord is unfailing love
    and with him is full redemption.
8 
He himself will redeem Israel
    from all their sins.

Let us pray
Loving God, full of wisdom and truth, 
just and full of mercy, 
if you kept track of our sins, 
the words of frustration and temper that have hurt others, 
the selfish motives that have curtailed our love, compassion and generosity, 
the despair that has overwhelmed and the fear that has roosted in our hearts and heads, 
what chance would we have to ever come into your presence?

Loving God, full of compassion and grace, 
look upon us, and see us through the eyes of your Son Jesus
who gave his all that we might be forgiven and welcomed. 
Forgive us with your unfailing love, with that forgiveness that casts our sin away, as far as the east is from the west, and allows us to begin again. 
Lord, help us believe that our sins are forgiven and that we may come into your holy presence, in worship and praise, forgiven and restored. Praise be. 

Loving God, of the past, the present and the future, 
as we gather together in worship, knowing that our prayers are heard, 
our unity with our brothers and sisters around the world joining us together across time and space is sure, be pleased to be with us in our homes and our workplaces.  

And so we bring our prayer together, with the words that Jesus taught us as we share in the family prayer:
Our Father in heaven, hallowed be your name.
Your Kingdom come, your will be done, on earth as in heaven.
Give us today our daily bread.
Forgive us our sins, as we forgive those who sin against us. 
Lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil. 
For the kingdom, the power and the glory are yours. 
Now and for ever. Amen.